Fired.

Grandson's boot camp graduation. 

I would of liked to have been there. I was still working and on the outs with the kids. Long story that does look like it was the best thing to happen to me and Sweetie. 

I seem to rub most of my kids the wrong way, and it seems like most of the relationships are lukewarm for many different reasons. Because we are a blended family, and that in it self is a good ingredient of the different levels of friendship I have with the kids. Distance, miles, with my two, they live in a different state. Sweetie's two daughters are all wrapped up in themselves and don't spend anytime with their mother. 

The best and closest is with my step-son. Maybe it is because he and I are men. I think it is his caring personality, his real love for his mother, and willingness to help out. He is open and gregarious, and most of all, his love of God. 

Do I want more? Sure I do! I don't want to carry this load by myself and some timely help from the daughters would be nice. At the same time, I don't want to nag at them to come over and give me some time to myself. Damned if they do, and damned if they don't. Oh well. This is one of those things that I can't control and I already have enough on my plate and don't need to add anymore to it. 

Fired our sitter company yesterday. Was to have a sitter and when no one showed up, I called to see what was going on. They didn't have us scheduled at all. With all the problems that we have been having, I just fired them on the spot. I was supposed to give notice, but since they didn't have us scheduled, that was notice enough. Now, I will be looking for a new sitter. 

Driver knows what is going on, even when I don't have the slightest clue. He's there guiding me and that is a hard job. I may say that I'm willing, but then again so is a donkey. That just about sums it up as to my relationship with my Driver and just about everyone else. I can get stubborn, mean, bucking at the load I'm carrying, then with His gentle voice and hand, I soon settle down and follow. Putting His yoke on, for it is gentle. He's waiting outside in the car, and I'm off. Getting into the passenger's seat, cool sunglasses on, and leading a caravan of like minded fellows, as we travel down the Road to Dementia Town, Keeping our Shiny Sides Up. C'ya, Luv ya, and God Bless.