Reasonable Happy

My sweet Sweetie Pie. 

Sometimes I use the search and posting of the pictures for the daily entry will trigger a memory or the realization of how far this disease has taken us. 

One of the questions that may be on your mind about me. I love those comments that are an encouragement, a surprise of where I get my strength to be so kind to Sweetie. It isn't from me. 

In my morning prayer and meditation time before I get anything going. I sit with a selection of christian music, read from several different meditation books and then journalism several prayers. They are the same prayers and as I journal they remind me of my life, my wife, and how my God is working, walking with me. One of the lines in my prayers has a simple but powerful word in it. It reminds me of how truly blessed I am. That word is "reasonable", and the line is "that I maybe reasonable happy in this life." 

When I read this line, everyday, 7 days a week, for over 6 years, it is a steady drum beat on my head and heart. It makes everything simple, smooth, and acceptable. Think about it, life isn't all good or all bad times. It is what you make out of it. I have a choice every morning when I wake up and when I write this prayer, it reminds me just what life is like. I ask myself, "Are you reasonable happy?" and when I stop and think about it, the answer is yes. 

This where the idea of Easter Eggs come from. They are the reasons I'm reasonably happy. My purpose, my reason for what I'm doing, is my love, Sweetie. 

When we found out that she diagnosed with Dementia it was a relief and fearful at the same time. I didn't know it at the time, it was at that time, I knew what my job was going to be for the rest of our lives together. The shift had been slowly happening and I didn't know that at that time. The slow mental and emotional shift from husband to caregiver. With it, my conception of reasonably happy. 

I sometime am amazed on how easily that shift happened. I took the road that has so many twist, turns, dips had bumps. There are still more twist, turns, detours and passing zones ahead. My Driver knows the road, and I trust His decisions as we go down the road to Dementia Town. As always, keeping my Shinny Side Up. Be careful of your own twist and turns as you travel, keeping your Shinny Side Up. God Bless.