CBD, sundowners and fear.

Sweetie, Strawberry Funnel Cake and fun. 

I have never felt so helpless as I did last night. I know it wasn't me, but I did have a hand in it. I have been cutting back Sweetie's CBD oil, as a test to see how she her sundowners progressing. 

We had a good day to start with. My golfing buddy couldn't make it, so we went out by ourselves. I shot a good round, best in awhile, and towards the end, she was wearing out, getting irritable, wanting to go in. I was able to distract her and finish the round. 

I can usually tell what is going on with her by her breathing and body language, and of course, her "boys" stories. 

After we got home and had lunch, we watched some good old TV. Then about 3 in the afternoon, she started down the sundowners path. Gave her her dose of CBD, and Lotion. Instead of getting better, she kept going further and further into sundowners. I knew I was in trouble, just how much I didn't know. 

I tried walking the neighborhood, that didn't help. We went on a drive, and that was even worse. She wanted me to pull over so she could help those boys and was getting mad and crying when I wouldn't. We did stop and I let her out, she didn't know where she wanted to go, and was just wandering around. I was able to give her a shot of oil before the ride and was hoping that the combination of the ride and oil would start her back on the recovery road. 

Got home, and she was just a bouncing ball of nonsense. Gave her another shot of Hemp Oil, while she was protesting all the time. As her sundowners gain steam, she would ask me questions, and my answers didn't mean a thing to me. For the first time, I thought she was going to hit me. She sat between me and the TV, getting belligerent, I couldn't move without her getting in the way, fighting me if I moved or if I stayed still. It was terrible. After about 2 hours, she slowly started back to me. 

I learned my lesson. She just cannot do without her Hemp Oil. The only time we had it this bad was before CBD. I was able to calm her down enough for her to go to bed and get some sleep. 

This is another reason I enjoy my 3-4 hours in the early morning, by myself. Doing my prayer time, meditation time, and you. With daycare cancelled, I have to find more ways to get my me time in. I find that talking to all of you who read my rantings seem to identify with my journey for I am not alone. I gives me strength to keep going. 

Speaking of going, guess who's here? Yep, my Driver has shown up just as I'm finishing here. I hope you don't mind, I need some alone time with Him. But, then again, the road to Dementia Town is always better with friends, anyone up for a road trip today? Driver and me are heading out, just let up know, for we always have room for one more. Here we go again, got my cool sunglasses on, just relaxing and looking for Easter Eggs. Yesterday's Easter Egg was the lesson I learned. So, you see, there always will be one if you look for it. As we head on down the Road to Dementia Town, Keeping our Shiny Side Up. You too, even if it is a short drive, or a all dayer, just remember Shiny Side Up, and you too can find Easter Eggs. Later, Love Ya, till tomorrow. God Bless.