Dementia: A new language to learn.

At Anaheim for a game.

 

Well, we won't be going to any ball games until next season. What a big pause this Corona Virus has been. Got out and played golf for the first time since the beginning. Amazing how quickly my game fell apart from where it was before the lock down. Heard from daycare and it looks like they will be opening up on the 15th. Not sure if I'll take Sweetie there on the 15th or not. We have to start somewhere, sometime, and now I'm just not sure. 

I know I need the my time, it just the pull of leaving her. I know once I get her there, the relief will come. 

Cinco De Mayo, a party day in the past. A day of chips and salsa, guacamole, tacos, refried beans, and friends. Now, it is just the 5th of May, no gathering, no festive food and drink, it just a day of caring for Sweetie. Each day with her is the same and yet at the same time it is something new. I know that she doesn't know who I am, or my relationship to her. She doesn't know the meaning of simple words and as I explain them to her, those words don't have meaning either. 

I feel like I'm a linguist, trying to learn a new language, and the word keep changing their meaning. I've found the simplest meaning work the best, using the easiest instructions work, and if that doesn't just let her try and then guide. It used to be that I would hold the door and she would just walk in, now I have to tell her to go in first. 

Go a neighbors mail in our box yesterday, knowing that they were out on a bike ride, saw them as we were taking our walk, so we waited for them to come home. When I saw them and we headed over there, Sweetie was very hesitant to be there, but once the door was opened, she became a chatty Kathy, I almost couldn't get her to leave. It was fun and an Easter Egg, too. 

Fun, that is what I look for when I hear my Driver coming into the house. He has an uncanny sense of timing. He knows just when I'm on the verge of completion and anymore would be too much. So, here He is and I'm done for the morning post. I think I'll wear shorts today, let the sun get on my legs, as I sit in the passenger seat, leaning back, and down the Road to Dementia Town we go. Trusting that my Driver will keep us on the road, keeping our Shiny Side Up. You too, Smile when you pass us by, as you drive Keeping your Shiny Side Up. Love Ya, and God Bless.