She weeps.

At Old Town. 

Sometimes when I post these pictures, I say to myself, "I miss you, Sweetheart.". Its true. For who I am carrying for isn't the wonderful lady in these pictures. She is gone and what is left is a hollowed out body, that is who she is now. 

This morning in my meditation time, I read scripture from Philippians, about humbling myself and think of other better then me. Isn't that what I'm doing now? By taking care of Sweetie as I do, I'm humbling myself and putting her first. Sure I do all the things that I should, because it is right and right is right no matter the circumstance or inconvenience. 

Just how more humbling is it to have to wash her backside because she doesn't know what her body is doing. To find her smeared and then to get her into the shower to clean her up. As a baby, it is easy to do that sort of thing, because they just don't know. Now, it is as if she is reverting to that same state of mind. Not knowing when her body does something. 

As you can imagine, we had another busy shower day. Then she also had a wondering around the house, an attempt to go outside, and finally to bed real early. To my surprise, she was still awake, waiting for me to come to bed so she could go to sleep. It is a comfort to me, that she leans so much on my presents for peace and safety. 

I wrote a note to her, its on our mirror in the bathroom, I'll see her looking at it, and then I'll read it to her.

 

I will take care of you

I will protect you

I will love you, no matter what.

As I read it, I will look at her and point to my heart, then to her heart, and put my arms around her, and she weeps. I'm so glad that I wrote that to her so many years ago. It is a message to me too, and a good reminder why I do what I do. 

Driver likes it when I see His influence on me. It is when I look through the review mirror and see that influence for myself. It can lift my sinking heart. For it has a burden that gets heavy now and then. That is when I yoke myself to His wisdom in the car. As we drive down the Road to Dementia Town, leading the caravan of cars with their Shiny Sides up. C'ya, Luv ya, and God Bless.