Easy.

@the zoo.

We made it to the zoo. This is an old picture, but it was at the zoo, so I will use it anyway. I look at these pictures, and to see the love of my life, still full of life, to know that that isn't her today. I digress. 

If I dwell in the past too much, I can get depressed. I think it is only nature for me to want to give into the pull of depression. It would be so easy to fall and not get back up. At the same time it isn't easy. 

Easy would be easy. Life isn't. There are times when it seems that life is easy, and that is usually when I come out of a difficult time. Surviving seems difficult, until that time of surviving is over, then it was easy. 

Each day with Sweetie is a good mixture of both, and usually ending with easy. Take yesterday. Some difficulty getting her up. I was worried about her being constipated, I don't have that worry now. One less thing to worry about. Her shoulder is getting better, and I'm not giving her as much Hemp Oil as I've done in the past. Just letting her act normally, if there is such a thing as "normal" with dementia. 

I want to see just how well I do with her being off CBD. If I can guide her or shepherd her, and make it through the day. 

After I got her up, fed, and ready, we headed to the zoo. She was fine walking with me, and there wasn't much to see. We stopped at the Polar Bear's , and they were being bears, sunning themselves, not very active. It was shortly after that she said she was cold. As we headed out, we stopped at the duck pond, and did our sharing thing with the kiddies. Sweetie wouldn't feed any of the animals, just watched. 

After the zoo, we went and did a mall crawl, and some shopping. Tried to find some sweatpants for her, they didn't have her size. So, we got our stuff, and headed home. 

That is where it got not so easy. I was putting the food away, when I noticed Sweetie wasn't with me, and the front door was unlocked. She was walking down the street, and I quickly joined her. She didn't know where she was going, but she was going. I walked with her and she didn't mind me being there. 

We live in a loop, imagine a track around a football field, and that is what our neighborhood is like. Sweetie started walking, and she walked the loop three time before I decided to guide her back into the house. If I didn't she might still be walking. Once inside, the frustration of being stopped broke out. When I tried to get her to take some CBD, she fought me and I had to give up. That is when I went for the Lotion. It took some time, but it worked. It was Mr. Sundowner at his best. Just to wrap this up. Lotion, a nap, and then some Hemp, and we had a very nice, easy, evening. 

See, its easy. That is what my Drive keeps reminding me. You have to have the rough to enjoy the smooth easy. The Road to Dementia Town is like that. Rough then easy, as we go, Keeping our Shiny Side Up. C'ya, Luv ya, and God Bless.