So worn out.

Valentine's day '19

I forgot to wish all of you, a Happy Valentine's day, yesterday. So, I hope you had a wonderful day. Filled with flowers, chocolate hearts, and special time with your favorite Valentine. 

I spent the day, mostly on the couch with my Sweetie. There wasn't any cards, chocolate, or flowers. Just two people sitting on a couch, watching TV, seeing the snow on the ground and just loving each other as best we could. 

Sweetie was up early and as my habit is on Sunday morning, I watch 3 different preachers to get my spirit fed. She was up early enough, that we watched them together. She seemed to understand the messages, and smile as they were being presented. 

We had breakfast, did the laundry, had to change the bed, and just enjoyed the morning. 

In the afternoon, the roads were clearing up, and so we went to the mall and did a walk about, and a car ride. Same old stuff. 

I'm torn when I see her sleeping on the couch next to me. I know she needs the sleep, because she is up so much at night, and yet, I want her to stay awake so she will sleep at night. Tough choice, so I let her nod off for a few minutes. Sleep seems allusive to Sweetie. I know for myself, I don't sleep like I used to, and even when I spend time playing golf, I still don't sleep through the night. It is the same with Sweetie, a full night sleep might be the time in bed between the up and walking time. 

Now I know why she seems so worn out when I wake her in the morning. I also know that if I don't get her up before, say between 9 and 10, she will wet through her pullups and I have to change the bed, change her pants, and sometimes shower her. So, for both of our sakes, I try and not let her sleep past 10. Than again, it is my choice. 

Choices, I don't have many, but my Driver lets me know, that I only have to rest on Him, and trust His driving, and all the choices I make will be the right one. Maybe not at the time, but down the road I will see it was the right one. As the countryside changes while we drive down the Road to Dementia Town, Keeping our Shiny Side Up. C'ya, Luv ya, and God Bless.