Enjoyed my loneliness.

You are my Sunshine.

How she does it, I don't know. What I do know is that I am not complete without her. I pour my life into her just to keep her safe. She can't do it herself. 

I don't like it, and I don't have any say it what will happen, I'm just along for the ride. I know my place in what is going on, what the destination is what we are heading for and that doesn't make it any easier. 

My prayer is that I get to keep her with me until the end. To be there until she takes her last breath, to know that I did my very best for her, and I'll meet her on the other side of life.

Thursday

It is our Bible Study day. I so look forward to this morning. I can get Sweetie excited about coming too. Telling her that we are going to talk about God, and she perks up. I've told you before that her father was a preacher, and she loves the Bible and anything about it. 

It was a good meeting, and the pastor is enjoyable to listen to. We have a very good round the table conversations. Those who are steeped in the Word, seem to carry the load for the rest. Then again, isn't that the way it always is. There are those who love to hear themselves talk, and then there are those who only speak when called upon, and the words they speak seem to carry so much more weight. 

While we were on the course, I tried something a little different. I park the cart in a way that puts Sweetie in the shade of the top of the cart. It could be that she is being cooked by the sun as we maneuver around the course, which cause her to loose her energy. 

Once home, she wants to nap, and I put her down. Around 3 I get her up, and we need to make a 4 item shopping trip. 

She is loosing the ability to know where we are and if she is to get out of the car. Now, I have to tell her we are where we are and what we are doing here. Just another sign that Dementia is still at work. 

Back home, she napped while I made dinner. She came out, then went back to her bed. 

She didn't like what I had made, so I tried some cereal, she ate little. Then back to bed. 

With a meeting tonight, I had given her a dose earlier hoping she would be willing to go. She wasn't, so with phone in hand, I left. 

Came home to her sleeping, had to rearrange her in bed, went and turned on TV, watched a movie, ate our dessert, and enjoyed my loneliness. 

There were a few curves today on the Road to Dementia Town, nothing that our Driver couldn't handle. Life is what it is, not what I want it to be. That is why I let my Driver take control, He knows the what lies ahead. That way, I can concentrate on Keeping Our Shiny Side Up. C'ya, Luv Ya and God Bless.