Hopes for the day.

Ready for my retirement party.

Each day begins with hopes of some sort of sanity to it and each evening ends with hope of a same or better day then the one we just lived through. For I know, as Sweetie sleeps, a part of her brain is struggling to stay alive, or has died and will never come back again. 

Yesterday was a so different, she was edgy shortly after she got up, it seemed like nothing I did could calm her. It was our shower day. At one point she got out of the shower and I was afraid that we both would be running outside naked with me chasing after her, trying to get her back in the house. Before I could get her hair dried, she had to move, to get out of the house. 

We had just about all the emotional and physical experiences in one day. It was if her sundowners was going all day long.  She pooped in the shower, in her hand, she was out and then back in. Her emotions were up one side and down the other. The only thing she didn't do was wet the bed. She wandered outside, and didn't want me to be anywhere around her, and she just wore herself out to the point of crawling into our downstairs bed and taking a nap. After that, she calmed down for the rest of the evening. Even giving her extra CBD didn't seem to help. 

Her Dementia is like trying to nail jello on the wall. What seems to help one day, just doesn't help the next. The one thing I do know, is I will keep working at it. It does give me hope that each day will be less stressful and we can make it through. Because of the virus, I've really learned what daycare goes through. Though I think it is different because they are trained in caring and have activities to redirect the patients to help calm their behavior. Will be so glad to be able to participate in daycare again.

Time to get some relaxing time in for myself, and there isn't any better way than to go for a ride with my Driver. He's here and waiting for me to stop the key work. OK, I need this road trip big time. He's got the trunk open for me to take the worries off my shoulders and put them there, I won't need them on this trip, as we head down the Road to Dementia Town, looking for Easter Eggs, Keeping our Shiny Side Up. If you are carrying the weight of the world on your shoulders, why not put them in your car's trunk, and enjoy your road trip, Keeping your Shiny Side Up. Take care until tomorrow. Love Ya, God Bless.