Am I making a difference?

Memories.

Have you ever wondered if what you're doing is making a difference? Am I doing this for me or for her? Or for both of us? 

I know the progression of this disease will not stop, will take its course, and the time it gets to the final destination is on its time table. 

Where are we now on this Road to Dementia Town? At the beginning? The middle? Or near the end? I'd say somewhere in the middle. Sweetie still does things that surprises me, both for the old and the new. She needs to take a nap now, especially after our walks. They seem to exhaust her and drain her of her energy. Her sundowner's moods are not as powerful as they were just two weeks ago. But, I just wait, because like a volcano, sundowners can awake and erupt at anytime. 

Worried about her water intake. When she got up, and we went to the potty, she was dry. That was very unusual. I am very happy with the overnight pads that we've been using, to the point I took off one of the night sheets she has been sleeping on. If these overnight pads are the solution, then that is one less thing I have to worry about. 

I had a thought the other day, and it kinda makes sense. You see, I'm the father of two girls, and as their father, I did my share of diaper duty. So, I was self trained on how to care of messy diapers. With Sweetie moving into the that part of Dementia where she will be more like a baby, my care skills will be renewed as I care more and more for her. 

Caring, now that is where my Driver comes in. He is the one that shows me what caring is all about. He cares for me, and shows it. So, I have an example of how to care for Sweetie. I need this lessons on caring and at the same time, I need the refreshing that comes with just being in the car with Him. AHHHH, I hear the car pulling up into the drive way. I think I'll surprise Him and meet Him outside. So, Let the wind be at your back, the sun on your face, as you drive the Road to Dementia Town, Keeping Your Shiny Side Up. See you on the journey we travel together, as you too, Keep Your Shiny Side Up. Drive with care, Love Ya and God Bless.