The monster arose from within.

We were so happy.

How can a day that seems so good, go so wrong. 

My spirits were lifted high after Thursday feeling of success. Thinking that I had found the golden orb of peaceful coexistence with Dementia and sundowners. It was the timing of medication, that was the key and I was ready for two days in a row where I could just enjoy the afternoon and evening with Sweetie. 

Oh how evil Dementia can be. It seemed like she just wasn't herself all day, just a little off, nice, but edgy. Spent some time at the driving range with moments of normalcy, and lunch was OK. It was as if she was miles away from me. Knowing that I was there, but no real connection. We did have one success, didn't have to put dry pullups on her all day. To me, that is one huge gold star day. 

It was in the evening when I got up to fix dinner. She has been shadowing me so much that it is normal that she gets up and comes with me into the kitchen to help. This time she stayed on the couch and watched TV. My antenna went up, and put myself on alert. Sure enough, just around our bed time, sundowner, who was stalking her all day long, stuck. I caught her trying to get out the door. When I stopped her the monster arose from within. The Kids, the eternal bemoaning of what she had to do, that I wasn't helping her, and no matter what I said, it didn't make sense to her.  So it is a gentle voice, gently blocking her from getting out of the house. At the same time, getting some Stress Relief lotion on her, and a dose of Hemp Oil in her. She fights me all the way, but I am successful, and she slowly returns. Last night, she slept in her jeans for the first time ever. It was a battle, I wasn't willing to fight. 

I'm ready, and my Driver is here now. He wants to take a drive into the mountains this morning, says He knows an Oasis there where I can walk with Him, and talk with Him and He'll tell me I am not alone. Just to have those quiet moments, where the world makes sense, with Driver, the one who created the universe, at my side, and I have His ear. Then back in the car, refreshed, putting on my cool sunglasses, as we pull back on to the Road to Dementia Town, seeing the sun bounce off the hood, for we are Keeping Our Shiny Side Up. If you need to, look for the Oasis sign, pull off and refresh yourself with your Driver, as you head down the Road to Dementia Town, Keeping Your Shiny Side Up. Take Care, Love Ya, and God Bless.