Wonder about the "ifs" in life.

One of the joys of pictures are the memories
they bring back. Love you Sweetie.

As I sit here, and ponder what it would of been like, without Dementia, I find that it doesn't do me any good to wonder about the "ifs" in life. What I do have is the memories of before, and the now. The now may not be as pretty as we thought it would be, but it is what it is. 

Sweetie is going into a sleep stage. Up for a time, and then, she has to make it to bed and to sleep. Yesterday I was concerned about her not sleeping through the night. She took a nap around 4, and woke up around 5:30, and then we went to bed at 8 and she is still asleep. Is she burning her energy that quickly? One of the side affects of her naps is that she is pleasant to be around. Instead of the sundowner monster awaking, she smiles, seems to be happy, and will to do what needs to be done. When she now wants to go somewhere, it is to bed, not outside, a great relief for me.

Yesterday, it was clean out some stuff day. I've been meaning to get rid of all the "stuff" that we has assembled over the years and don't use or wear anymore. Got a couple of trash bags and got rid of old cowboy boots, shoes, towels, and sheets. My goal is to become spartan with what we need. The fewer the better, and that means easier in man talk. There is still too much in the linen closets that we haven't used in years, so it is time to say "Good bye" to what has a covering of dust.   

Being that it is Sunday, and I don't play golf on the weekends, it will be a Sunday morning walk after breakfast, there is a route that will do about 2 miles, and that is the one I'll try to get her to take. Later, some shopping, and stuff to fill the day. 

You would think that this being Sunday, that my Driver would want the day off. You would be wrong, He told me, since I'm taking care of Sweetie 24/7, He will be with me 24/7. He tells me I need Him, and He is so right. I don't know how I'd make it through these past months without our daily car rides. No matter how over bearing these days are, and the days to come, I can count on my Driver to be here with me. Smiling, holding the passenger door open, as I get in, buckle up, and put on my cool sunglasses and He takes the wheel. No matter where we go on the Road to Dementia Town, I will be refreshed, and ready for the whatever the monster Dementia throws at me. Yep, that's right, because we have our Shiny Side Up, and that won't change. Do you find refreshment on your daily ride? If not, follow me and my Driver as we both motor down the Road to Dementia Town, blinding people as we go, because the sun is bouncing off our Shiny Sides. Take Care, Love Ya, and God Bless.