Friday, July 3, 2020

Complacency is the enemy.

Who knew?

Should I start with "Yesterday"? Isn't that which this is all about? Yesterdays? 

Is life short? Or does it seem like it is too long. Caregivers, our Love Ones with Alzheimer's/Dementia just might agree, for us and them, it may seem like life is too long. The daily task of the care and feeding of our loveones, seem to pull the life out of us, while at the same time acting like a clogged drain in those we love. Because we cannot see the empty mark in them, we wonder how it is they open their eyes this morning.

Relieved that they are still with us, and by the end of the day, hoping that is might be their last. There are days, I have to admit, that I pray that my Higher Power, my Driver, would hasten the day, and take Sweetie to the sweet by and by. Then the day happens, when all the stars line up, the birds are singing, and life is as good as it gets and I'm overjoyed that she is still with me. 

Yesterday was one of those star and bird days. Peaks and valleys, on the golf course, she was fine until I finished the last hole, and then she got out of the cart and started walking. I went into my shepherd dog routine, and got her back into the cart and then the car, where she became relaxed again. 

Stopped off at Sonic's for a burger and tots lunch to take home. I get her the smallest burger on the menu, and I get the green chili cheese burger. When we get home, cut hers in half, and she just went after it. What she likes and what she puts up with is always a surprise. 

Lately the end of the day has been a struggle, last night was not. Complacency is the enemy of my peace of mind. Dementia will lull me and I won't do what I need to do, thinking that she is fine, and as bed time draws near Mr Sundowner shows up. Last night before we headed up to be, about a half hour before, I put some Stress Relief lotion on her and a dose of Hemp Oil, and when we headed off to be, she was ready to go. 

It's time for me to go, my Driver is here, and waiting. Off, down the Road to Dementia Town we go. I never know where he is taking me, I can only trust and obey. I do know we'll be driving with our Shiny Side Up. That goes for you too, Keep your Shiny Side Up as you travel the Road to Dementia Town. So long for now, Love Ya and God Bless. 


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