Simple Moments

Daily stuff we enjoyed. 

Sometimes I wonder why I took these pictures. Seemly simple stuff, like putting whip cream on a simple dessert. At the time, I cannot tell you why. Now? I can tell you that I miss those simple moments. The quiet moments of sitting next to each other, silently eating our desserts, and enjoying a show on the TV. 

Sweetie is beginning to show some resistance to my help. When I need to check her pullups, she starts asking questions on to why we are doing this. She will slap my hand away as I attempt to undo her pants. There are now phrases that I use to get her to allow me to do what I have to do. I'll tell her that I'm her caregiver, and that it is my job to check her out. She usually responds positively to that phrasing. Using caregiver and job seems to take the personal out of what we are doing. 

It is the same when I take her upstairs to go to be. She wants to head right to bed, without getting her "ready" for bed. The hardest part is to put her overnight pad in her pullups. Once I convince her it needs to be done, it is over in seconds and she is off to bed. 

Last night was one of her "don't get near me" nights. She kept moving my hands away from her. We go through this about once a week, most of the times we kiss and say good night. I know that even that will go away, so I enjoy each and good night kiss I get from her. 

Like Driver's words, they seem like kisses on my heart. For He is the one that is whispering to me, that my treasures are in heaven waiting for me. And when I get there Sweetie will be whole once more. I feel like I'm doing a living amends to her for all the crap I put her through earlier in our marriage. He says that isn't true, it is just all the love I have for her pouring out, and He also tells me that I will never run out of that love, for it comes from Him. Everyday, on our drive to Dementia Town, He is refilling me. He needs to Keep the Shiny Side Up so He can have all the light He needs while He is pouring His love into me, so I can pour it out onto Sweetie. So, if you see that I am all wet, you know why. Down the Road we go, all the way to Dementia Town, you coming? Gotta keep Your Shiny Side Up. See you on the Road, Love Ya and God Bless.