The darkness of Dementia.

I miss us

I know that I'm not the only one, not someone that is so special that people won't understand what I mean by missing us. As I age, as I grow old, I had always thought that we would be walking down the road of life together. Holding hands, leaning on each other, resting on the wayside, and just enjoy those autumn years of your lives together. 

Children, grandchildren, and if we are lucky enough, great-great grandchildren. As it seems that I am the one in this partnership, in this life journey, with Sweetie, that I'll be the one that has that pleasure. For Sweetie has moved one more step into the darkness of Dementia. 

I was rummaging around the house looking for some more pictures to share with her. When I couldn't find any, that old brain of mine went to work. Working in the background and wa la, the thought came to me, up in the attic, there is a box full of pictures. And as it so happens, I have to get up there soon to get Christmas down. Looking forward to be sitting with her as we share those pictures.

Yesterday was a weird day. From the time I woke Sweetie up, to when we went to bed, it wasn't the same. She was argumentative all day long. She ate little, wondered around the house, and even with extra Hemp Oil, it didn't seem to help. The only time she was "normal" was when we went to the mall and walked. 

Saturday is her normal shower day, that didn't happen. No matter how much I tried, to sway her, to maneuver her, it just wasn't going to happen. Even checking her pullups, and cleaning her was a battle. I think she was tired. 

She doesn't like the dark and will stay next to me. I don't think she is sleeping very well and when I wake her, she just isn't working right. Her brain stays in the half asleep mode, even though she is up and moving. This morning I'm going to wait for her to come down. She seems to function better that way. 

We seem to have hit some pot holes yesterday while we were on the road. Don't know if Driver was hitting them on purpose, to wake me up, or just to get my attention. It seems that when I get lazy in my riding with Him, not paying attention, He does these things, just to let me know who is driving. As we head into the sunrise, I am can see, faintly at first, what is ahead. Driver and me, heading into the sunrise of today, knowing that there are curves yet unseen, beauty untold, and life to be lived. As we travel the Road to Dementia Town, with all of you, Keeping our Shiny Sides Up. C'ya, Luv ya, and God Bless.