Up

A day at the zoo.

Watched "Up." yesterday. I remember the first time we watched it. It was at the end of the entro, and Eli had passed, I was saying to myself, that was a short movie. How wrong I was. Carl was stuck. His whole life had become so intertwined with her, that he forgot how to live. Live with the memories, and to move on with them, not as a anchor, but as balloons. Lifting him up, as she did in life. That, my friends, is what I'm trying to prepare myself for. 

For me, it is the Easter Eggs that I find with Sweetie. Those quiet moments, those "Love eyes" that she will look at me, her smile, and every now and then, the correct answer to a question, to a situation, and for that instant, she is back. I sound like I'm repeating myself on this point, but like the house in Up, I cannot pull myself away from it. 

I mentioned Sweetie's elbow was showing some improvement. I began to do some bending therapy with it. The swelling is going down, and by manipulating it up and down, to stretch it just a little, plus with some pain relief cream and vibrating it, we should see some more improvements by this time next week.   

She is sleeping more, and eating less. I know that it is a progression of Dementia, and with the sleeping as much as she is, I have to consign myself to a watcher. I do make sure she gets up and gets cleaned up and fed. I still make sure we get some walking in. That I feel is the best for both of us. Getting out and stretching our legs, so to speak, is keeping her alert. Last time out, she tried to speak to a woman with her children, and no matter how much she tried, she just didn't make any sense to her. She looked at me, and I just said, "Smile and nod." and in a flash of understanding, she knew, and smiled and nodded. 

With Sweetie having mini strokes, I'm on my guard when we go out. I am fearful that she will go down and not get back up. That would be terrible for us. So, I'm thinking of shorting our distance when we are out. 

As it is always, I'm at the pleasure of my Driver. He is the one that lets me know how and when change is due. I trust in His leading, and the walk about at the mall is some of His understanding. If she is content to sit and watch, then I should be too. It is just another day on the Road to Dementia Town, as we go, Keeping our Shiny Side Up. C'ya, Luv ya, and God Bless.