Mad at me.

Forever Smile.

So many of my pictures are with Sweetie across from me, as we would eat, usually a treat I know she would like. Here it is a strawberry funnel cake. We're at Knott's Berry Farm, in the free walk around shop around area. 

When we would go to California on a get away, we seemed to be in a loop. The beach, Knott's, Disneyland, Angel Game, and home. It would be a 3 or 4 day visit. I would make plans to see my daughters and granddaughters, and up to my dad's grave for a family visit. He is in the family plot, so it is a one stop for all. 

With Sweetie and her Dementia, the draw to California isn't as strong as it was. Family ties are strained and the visits are getting shorter and shorter. Last time, it was just a photo op of us all together. The pandemic and election has provided much more space between me and my daughters then ever. I sometimes think, is there really a good reason for me, for us, to visit California again? Time will tell.  

Sweetie is a vacuum of my time and energy. I have to spend the same amount of time taking care of her, no matter where we are, so why spend the extra time and expense of taking her anywhere, when we can be the same at home? At least at home, we are comfortable, and safe. 

Got to play golf yesterday, it was a joyous day. It was cold, and a bit brisk. There was snow on the course, which was a new playing hazard for me. I just enjoyed being away. 

Sweetie was happy to see me when I got home, and yet she was a little stand offish. Got her out for a walk, and when we were home, she wanted to wonder around the house. One good thing to report, is since I put the childproof door cover on the front door, she hasn't gotten near it, let alone tried to get out of the house. 

I think she was mad at me for leaving her yesterday, and the only way she could show her discontent was by walking, and being away from me. It was a Stress Relief lotion to the rescue night. Sweetie was irritable, and restless. I had to trick her into letting me put the lotion on her neck, but after it was applied, she calmed down, and went to sleep. 

Driver just knows the tools that are available for me to use. I open myself up to His leading, and it is there I get my answers. Oil, Lotion, and just holding her hand. Alone or in combinations, they are His gifts to us. For they are needed as we travel down the Road to Dementia Town, Keeping our Shiny Side Up. C'ya, Luv ya, and God bless.