To be happy where I am.

Love the colors.

Life and all its glory, and its failings, is all in the way I look at what is going on. The first thing I need to come to grips with, there is a God and I'm not Him. 

Now that we have that established, the other fact is, God will give what I take. Like the old bungy jumping. I'll give to God all that I have, and in the next breath, I'll jump off the ledge, with those bungy bands tied to my legs, and take back that which I gave Him. Then where am I? I'm left hanging, twirling in the air, not going anywhere.  

Fear of waiting for His plan, His way of getting things done is what is driving me. I know what I want, and I know when I want it, and it is now, come hell or high water. 

For sometime now, I've begun a new way of living, and new way of looking at what is happening to me, to us, to our family. 

Have you ever watched a shepherd dog? They are a magnificent creature, smart, cunning, and quick as whip. To see and get the sheep moving in his direction. They just know what to do, and get it done. 

As for me, I'm not as smart as a shepherd dog, I have to learn slowly, painstakingly slowly. I resent the time it takes for me to learn how to live a life that doesn't take me to the moon, to be happy when it gets me just a few feet off the ground. To be happy with where I am, and who I'm with. That is the lesson I'm learning. To be the clay on a spinning wheel, letting my Driver mold me into what He wants me to be. 

Monday

It rained last night, and the clouds are still hanging around. It is dark, clouds are dark, and as I look out my window, I think it looks more like November then August. Then when I step outside, yep, it is August. Hot and humid. 

I see Sweetie is awake so it is time to go and get her up. 

I enjoy taking to her in the morning. Most of the time she sees me and smiles. I'll sit down, introduce myself, again, and we talk. She is becoming quite the chatty Kathy. Of course, what she tells me doesn't make any sense to me, but she is telling me something. 

After our morning of chatting, it is up and get it going. 

I checked the weather report, and rain should be leaving the area soon. But as all good plans of mice and men, they went astray. It was still raining at the golf course, so instead of going back home, we went to the mall for our walk about. Mixing things up, doesn't hurt every now and then. 

Sweetie has developed a small hitch in her get-a-long. Every now and then, her shoe will catch on the floor, and almost trip her. I noticed it when she gets her shoes wet. Not sure what this is all about, it just makes me ready to catch her. Just another new thing. 

When we got back to the course, the rain had stopped, and off we went. She was her old self again. Walking to the tees and greens, sharing in my excitement as I made good shots, sad when I blew it, and over all, we had a wonderful day on the course. 

Home, lunch, yardwork, nap, shop, and then it was dinner, desert, meeting, home and to bed. Just about covers it all. 

Took a short detour today while we were on the Road to Dementia Town. Just to avoid some weather. Driver knows the way and all is good. As we go, Keeping our Shiny Side Up. C'ya, Luv Ya, and God Bless.