Faded memories.

Miss these days.

So much has happened since this picture. These times are now all but faded memories. Our years are speeding up, and at the same time slowing down. 

As we move through each day, I try to catch a memory for the future. The times when we're walking in the mall and she will look at me, eye's beaming, smiling as she tries to sing with me. 

Now that we have Christmas music on the radio, watching her sing the Christmas songs. Sometimes just mouthing the words, and then she is singing along with the tune. To hear her sweet voice once again brings tears to my eyes. 

Her ability to know the correct feelings is amazing. She just doesn't sit and watch, she still knows what is going on and will react accordingly. 

Soon, I'll be getting our Christmas decoration out and bring Christmas into our living room. Bring the Nativity blowup Scene down from the garage and set it up. 

As Sweetie slowly fades, so does my eagerness to get Christmas out. Dementia is stealing the joy that was once the highlight of the year. 

Tuesday

Sweetie is having a rough time getting up. So, with kind words and gentle tones, she is up. 

She is seeming willing enough to get her into the shower. I keep forgetting about her hemorrhoid. I don't know why, maybe I'm thinking that it will go away by itself. 

It hasn't, and has gotten worse. So, I've begun using hemorrhoid cream on it. Because it is so hard and painful, it may take a couple of days to go down. In the meantime, I'll do what I can to keep her comfortable. 

I realize that she is in pain, and wants to do nothing but lay down. Knowing that she will be in bed most of the day, I make my plans for the day without her being by my side. 

A day to drive Tweety and walk the golf course. That is my solution for the day. 

Home, and she is doesn't want to move. But I do get her up and get her to sit on the potty. Where we do get some success, and I get to put cream on her sore spot. 

I do get her to come out for dinner. This is where we end our day. 

Had a few twists this day as we motored down the Road to Dementia Town. Nothing too spectacular, just a few lane corrections. Still we were able to Keep Our Shiny Side Up again. C'ya, Luv Ya, and God Bless.