Loneliness.

Rugged landscape of the Sandia's.

Have you ever had a moment when everything becomes so crystal clear, that you were amazed that you couldn't see it before? You see, I have this character defect that is driving me crazy. I do what I don't want to do, and yet that which I want to do, I don't. 

In my program there are acronyms and one of them is H.A.L.T. 

Hungry

Angry

Lonely

Tired

As I was pondering this acronym, it hit me. This character defect is being driven by being loneliness. Once I realized this, it seemed that the power of this defect seemed to loose its grip on me. As if that weighted back pack was removed.

I've had these AHHHs before, now let see how long the wonder last. 

Tuesday

This is the morning that I have a conversation with a friend of mine. We meet every Tuesday morning for about an hour. We talk about life, about nothing and everything is general. 

For a while now, we are going through the book Living Sober. We have developed a way of letting the book guide our conversation. By reading one or two paragraphs and then we let what we read to trigger our conversation. 

I've heard the acronym HALT before, but this time it wouldn't go away. It kept marinating in my head, all day long. Now I know why. Even with people around me, I'm lonely, and because I'm lonely, I give into my character defect. 

Now it is time for me to get Sweetie up. She seems awake and happy, but that only last until I try to get her up. 

Up at last, and we go and get the day started. I've started something new, again. I put her on the potty before we go to bed and let her sit to see if she will pee. At the same time, in goes her overnight pad, and off comes her sweat pants. 

It makes it so much easier for us in the morning, and one less item to be washed when she pees through the overnight pad. I keep the house fairly warm during the night, so she doesn't get cold and I think she sleeps better. 

At breakfast, her appetite comes alive, and she goes after her cereal. She seems more at ease this morning, she is smiling and her eyes are dancing. I love these mornings. 

It is off to the course, for another round of golf. Met a young man and his sister. He is watching her, because there is day off from school, and he is babysitting her. Nice kid, plays well, and oh that swing of youth is very apparent in him. He plays on one of the local High Schools golf team. It was fun for me. Sweetie was liking the little girl. 

Game over, and back for lunch, then the mall for our last outing of the day. Check list completed, we settle in for the evening. 

Dinner went well, and we went to bed shortly after that. Another day in the books that ended up being written in gold. 

Driver seemed very relaxed today behind the wheel. He had his cap on the back of His head, and an arm across the front seat. His attitude rubbed off on us, and we sat back and enjoyed the day. Just the three of us, driving down the Road to Dementia Town, Keeping our Shiny Side Up. C'ya, Luv Ya, and God Bless.  Arthur.