All about her.

All about her.

 

Yes it is, it is all about her. No matter what, she is the most important person in my life right now. Making that choice, as to who or what is making the difference in me shouldn't have been that hard. 

Getting involved with like minded men in this regard helps. For knowing that I am the not the only one who is putting their spouse first helps. 

I used to think I was putting my life on hold until her passing isn't the proper way to think about my life. We are so intertwined that you can't tell where her's begin and my ends. If there is one thing that I've learned so far is this. Life is what you make of it, not wishing what you have or have not. 

By investing in what we have, I grow my love for her and will look forward to taking care of her each and every day we have together. In that way when and if I'm left, I won't beat myself up saying that I should of done this or that, or what ever it was to keep her here a day longer. At the same time, I won't feel guilty about moving on with my life. For what ever happens, it is how it is meant to be. 

 Monday

Sweetie is awake, and I can tell she isn't ready to get out of bed, just yet. So, I greet her with a tube of her Happy Medicine, just to get the cobwebs out of her head. It takes me two more times before she gets up, and she did it mostly by herself. 

Depending on how she gets out of bed, will determine how her sense of balance will be. This morning, she needed me to hold her for a bit until she settled in on her feet. This is the time for me to get some "Hugging time" in. Holding her tight to me, I can feel her relaxing in my arms, as she builds confidence in her ability to stand and walk. 

After changing her and putting on clean clothes, it is breakfast time. So far, her appetite isn't lacking, and she eats all that I put before her. Which is a good thing. 

After breakfast, we are off for your normal activities for the day. 

Golf went well for the day, had 3 pars, and not a bad day over all. Again, like most days, there were some good shots, some shots that were fustrating, missing a par and ending with a boggie, all that normal stuff with golf. 

Home, lunch, and then out to the mall for our walk about. I stopped taking all my supplements to see of the pain in my legs would lessen, or better yet, go away. It seems that my idea is working. My legs don't hurt like they did in the past. Walking is much more comfortable, and now, it is a waiting time to see what happens from here. 

It seems that it is also helping me sleep at night. I'm sleeping longer and get up more energized. 

Well, back to the day, after we came home, Sweetie headed for her nest, and I got on IM with my mothering daughter. We had a delightful conversation. She had a Chiwawa that is very old, and she told me about her getting a urine sample for the vet. We talked about how dogs are becoming more human and with that, veterinarians are becoming more and more like people doctors. As of now, I'm so glad I don't have any 4 legged critters running around my house. Taking care of Sweetie uses all my time. 

We did the same as we always do, dinner, TV, meeting, home and to bed we went. 

It was a good day on the Road to Dementia Town. The kind that you sit back, relax and watch the world go bye. Driver, my Sweetie and me, just letting life go bye while Keeping Our Shiny Side Up. C'ya, Luv Ya, and God Bless. Arthur.