Sometimes you just have to know, when it rains, it pours.

The top is my youngest, and the bottom is my oldest

with granddaughter and husband.

Here I am just minding my own business, taking care of my end of this life thing. Sweetie must be settled in in her new digs, and I'm still learning how to take care of things down here. Reading the book "Never Alone" A man's companion guide to grief. Going to my meetings, and playing a lot of golf. You know, "normal stuff for me. 

 

My girls are very good at being my new caregivers. They call often, scold me when I'm not eating right, in their opinion. They mean well, and I love the attention they give me. 

 

It is because of the great communication we have developed, that I've learned about their mother. It isn't good news. 

 

After she had cataract surgery, she notice something that wouldn't go away. After returning to her doctor, and then being sent to another, she was diagnosed to have cancer. 

 

With the strom clouds forming, and some rain on the windows, she is sent to another doctor for some more test, and the results are back. Stage 4 lung cancer. Treatment is being scheduled as I write this post. 

 

Even with our divorce, because she is the mother on my daughters, she is someone special in my life. We haven't spoken in years, yet because of my daughters, she is still part of my life. I feel like I'm going to go through another loss, different, yet the same. 

 

Right now, my prayer is for her and my daughters, they will feel her loss first. Second is for us to speak and becomes friends one more time. 

 

Driver told me that I can never keep what has been given to me freely. Sweetie gave her love to me daily, now it is my turn to give it away. He hasn't lead me in the wrong direction yet, so why shouldn't I try. Isn't this part of my journey to New Life, and this is a stop that needs to be made. C'ya, Luv Ya, and God Bless.