Sweetie and her granddaughters

at Knott's Berry Farm 

How can one continue to talk about the day to day life? Life as I know it is has different for me as it is for you. Yesterday was just another sunup to sundown day. A normal day that included the joy and pain of taking care of the one I love, living through the world of Dementia. 

Trying to make some kind of a normality out of this existence called life. When I was a young man, married and we had our first child. What a change in life. A new life, that would be growing and learning and moving through life. Yes, she was a pain at times, waking and crying, having to change diapers. We learned too. We learned that we had to wait for her to grow and learn from us, as we taught her our views on life, on religion, and society. We both grew and learned.

Now, that brings me to the other side of life. As we have climbed the mountain of life, and move to the gravity pulling side, I'm having to learn a whole new lifestyle. We are not doing this side of life together, we are growing, slowing down in different ways. I'm not just her husband anymore, I'm her person, her strong man, her protector, I'm someone that makes her feel safe. 

I'm there to bath her, to help her brush her teeth, to help her dress, eat, and attempts to keep her calm. I'm also an experimenter, trying things that will keep her calm, keep her mentally here, thus the CBD Hemp oil, the Stress Relief Body Lotion, the attempts to keep her hydrated, and occupied.

Yesterday was another attempt to relieve her of her anxiety when I leave her at daycare. I stumbled upon the phrase "I'll be back and pick you up." seemed to ease her worry. I usually tell her that after we are at the center, but this time, it seemed to be a key to having a more stress-less separation.

Normally after we have something to eat, after picking Sweetie up from daycare, I head for someplace to walk around and just get some busy time. Yesterday, I took her home and sat her down on the potty, good idea. As I read to her, she became agitated, and soon her body took over and got elimination done. It always surprises me when she tells me she doesn't know what is going on. 

After our stop, we went to the mall and did some walking. I want to get her some slip on tennis shoes, the problem, she will not push to get the shoe on. Will work on a solution, keep you posted. 

Found that putting her stress lotion on her neck seems to be an improvement over having her rub it in on her hands. 

The sun is isn't up yet, the sky is letting me know it will be up soon, so, I'll be tooling down the road, keeping my Shinny Side Up. You too? God Bless.