When Living the days, sometimes they seem so long.

It doesn't seem that long ago

We went to the Balloon Fiesta.

Looking back at our pictures, some of them seem memories of long ago, and looking that the time that has come and gone since, seems like a blink of an eye. When I remember my Sweetie just a couple of years ago, and where she is now, makes me feel so sad that I didn't cherish her more.

Yesterday, I talked about the cold snap that rolled through New Mexico and the snow on the ground. How it was too cold to play golf, and that was so. I kept Sweetie home with me and we had a good day. 

We had breakfast, went to a meeting, to a movie, home, opened a new puzzle, and worked it a little. We were on the go most of the day. It is interesting that it seems that when we are active, Sweetie doesn't seem to have too much of a problem with her sundowners. 

Yesterday was one big Easter Egg day. We laughed, held hands, and just enjoyed the day. 

Now comes the points of my growth, of my willingness to be the caregiver to her. When we went to the movies, it was our first time in the men's room together. Because it was on a weekday, it was empty. I don't think I would even try it if there was a lot of foot traffic. We made it through, and watched "Spies In Disguise". It was a fun movie and Sweetie seemed to enjoy it. 

Our life is so much different from what it was just 6 months ago. We have gone from panties with liners to depends, from some understanding conversation to words that are repeated again and again, to asking the same questions over and over again, to being fearful of going somewhere that is new to her, but she has been going to that place many times. Her short term memory is almost gone, she does still have facial reorganization so on arrival makes it a friendly place to her.  What is surprising to me is, when we are reading, she knows when to turn the page. Maybe able to read, but can't read aloud. Go figure. 

As I sit here this morning, I ponder what joy is coming our way? What new challenge we will be facing and how we will overcome it? I know I'm not the only one that wakes and wonders. Our normal isn't that of a normal person's life. Anyone that has our job knows that normal is different everyday. It maybe a little change, or a big medical emergency, it's different. I'm just grateful that I can keep Sweetie home with me and I know each year that will be a bigger and bigger challenge. I just hope the plans I've made will be enough. 

Well, the sol is making itself known, the small clouds are getting their silver lining, and day is going to begin. Silver lining, the meaning that even in the darkest cloud, there is something good in it? The only way to find out is to live this day, seeking all the Easter Eggs that we can find. So, the garage door is going up, and my driver is waiting for me, as I get into the passenger side, buckling up, heading down the road to Dementia Town, keeping our Shinny Side Up. Keep on Trucking, Baby, keeping your Shinny Side Up. God Bless.