Heart ache of the Long Good Bye.

Off to church.

Cuddling on the couch, whispering sweet nothings, expressing love to my lover, the perfect ending to a good day. There were actions that I thought we might have been the running around with sundowners, but it didn't show up. Because the weather was windy and cool, our walking wasn't as much as I'd hoped it would be, we'll take what we can get. 

We were able to get in the back yard for some weed pulling. I let her go as long as she wants to. It is just the idea that she can still do some of those things. I keep encouraging her to keep at it. It may not be the best job ever done, for her, it is. Just to be able to sit and pull weeds, hearing her ask if this one is OK? Or, the old, I don't know what I'm doing as she continues to pull out weeds. 

It seems that I killed our tree in the front yard. Built a retaining wall and when I filled it in with top soil, it killed it. The tree is a surface rooter and burying the roots killed it. Now I'm going to have it cut down and the trunk ground out. It is going to be a visual of what Sweetie and I are going through. There is going to be a huge change in our lives soon. 

This long good bye is heart wrenching. With all the changes that have happened and are yet to happen, can be torture to my soul. Its like watching a train wreck in slow motion. I know where it will end, I just don't know when. 

One of the good things about this trip, is I've gotten to know and depend on my Driver. Each day I look forward to seeing Him, getting into His Shiny car, letting my worries and cares flow out of me and out the window as He navigates the Road to Dementia Town. It is there He speaks words of comfort, caring, and love. He lets me know that there is a time coming that we will be together again, loving and whole. That is a promise only He can keep. So, off I go, in the passenger's seat, with the window down just enough to let my troubles flow out, as we drive the Road to Dementia Town, Keeping our Shiny Side Up. If your still doing the driving and seem to get stuck, you might get yourself a Driver, and leave the Driving to Him, as you travel down your Road to Dementia Town, Keeping your Shiny Side Up. Love Ya, God Bless.