Possessive.

Sunrise out my back window. 

You know, I can be a selfish kinda of guy. I know what I want, and I also know when I want something. If it is a hot cup of coffee, I can get up and get it. If it is sleep, I know where I can lay my head down and go to sleep. I also know the facts of life and that there are things that no matter how much I try, or how much I pray, do or say, it will never happen. 

Then there are the things that will never change, and with that come acceptance. For acceptance is the answer to so many of the facts of life. I know that without it, I'd go crazy. 

Sweetie and acceptance go hand in hand. For I have to accept the way she is, the way she'll be today, and where she will be tomorrow. 

Our son came over yesterday to do some work. His home is getting a new circuit breaker box installed, and he needed power to run his laptop for a meeting. His presence caused Sweetie to have a strange reaction. She knew she should know him, and at the same time, he didn't belong here. She was irritable and flighty, it wasn't until we got out of the house and at the golf course did she settle down. 

When we returned, I took us out for lunch, first time in what seems forever. Again, that semi happy, angry, little girl came about, and no matter what we did, son or me, she was just on edge. It wasn't until we got back into our car and away, did she return to herself. 

I know that I am her lifeline, and that she is getting very possessive of me. She will share time with those around me, and yet if she feels that I'm spending too much time away from her, she can get mean. Not violent, just, I don't know, short with me and those around us. Others may not see it, or notice, but I do. I know it because I'm always around her, 24/7 and I know her moods and body language. 

After lunch, we had a good day, did some walking, and driving around. Had a light dinner, and to bed. I've decided that I need to read more, and with Sweetie wanting to go to bed early, it is the perfect time for me to curl up and do some reading. I've noticed that I'm sleeping better after reading for about an half hour. Rested body and mind will be an assets later on as demands will build.  

Demands, that is one thing that I know Driver doesn't put on me. He such a gentleman. I don't respond well to demands, and He knows that. He talks while I listen. I have to concentrate on Him while He is talking. He has such a still, quiet voice, and I can miss words if I don't pay attention. When He has all my attention, the words are crystal clear, and my heart of light. That is how it is, as we drive Down the Road to Dementia Town, with our Shiny Side Up. The caravan is forming, we'll be off soon. Come join the caravan, driving together on the Road to Dementia Town, as we help each other Keeping our Shiny Sides up. C'ya, Luv ya, and God Bless.