Tenderizing mallets.

My Sweetie Pie.

There was a time, when I would get so mad at her, I felt that I would explode. Then, she would flash those love eyes at me, and dissipate the anger that was there. She still has the ability to flash those "Love eyes" at me. When she does that, it makes it all good again. 

Now, if and when I look back, I could see that it was me, not her, that was the fly in the ointment. It seems that no matter how much I tell her "I'm sorry" it is never enough. Now, I can say "I love you" and "I'm sorry" at the same time by taking care of her. A living amends spoken of in the AA way of life. You know, it isn't a bad way of life, for it has made me more tender. Remember those tenderizing mallets? Sometimes I feel that I've been pounded by one, it hurt then again, it was worth it. 

Friday

It started with me hearing her in the bedroom. Knowing that she was up, I hurried back there. I didn't want her to wander to far from the bathroom. When she does, it takes a little more effort to get her there and change her. Sure enough, I was right. She didn't want to go and get changed, she wanted to do something other then what was needed. I've learned that if I just guide her in the direction I want, she will eventually allow me to get done what needed to be done. 

In my new food plan, we had cereal with bananas for breakfast without toast. She ate it all gone. Then she headed back to bed. She seems to be taking another step down into the darkness of Dementia. As long as she stays in the house I let her alone. The rule of if it doesn't cause harm, leave it alone.  

It turned out to be the theme for the day. Every time she would come out, and sit with me and I'd make a suggestion of going out of the house, she would get up and go back to bed. Sometimes she would stay there for 5 minutes, sometimes 15 or more. She did not want to leave the house. She did try the front door once, couldn't open it, and returned. 

We had applesauce for lunch and had a late dinner. She was ready and ate eagerly. Had our cake dessert, sat on the couch to finish the day and off to bed we went. Ending the day on a good note. 

Today, we are invited to a grandson's birthday party and I hope that she will have a different mindset. That I'll be able to convince her that we are going. Can't leave her alone, so she has to go with me. 

We are coming to a fork in the road, and which way will Driver go? Before, it was fairly easy to choose, now the choices are getting difficult. Do we want to go around the mountain, or over it. Either way we will have to choose. Driver knows the way, either way we go, so I wait and see. Do we take the easy path, or the challenging one? I'll just wait let the decision happen. For we are on the Road to Dementia Town, just making sure we Keep our Shiny Side Up. C'ya, Luv ya, and God Bless.