Sleep better without her.

Sweetie.

The days are getting lonelier. She is forgetting me more and more. I'm wondering if she even has any understanding of what the words she uses mean. She seems unsure of who I am, and what I'm there for. Even after I introduce myself and tell her that I'm the one that takes care of her. I'm starting to receive a blank stare as if the words are going right over her ability to understand them. 

She doesn't want to leave the house, which is part of stage 6 of Dementia. It leaves me with some very difficult decisions to make. Knowing that she doesn't want to get out, and no longer tries, leaves me with the question, is she safe for a short time alone? I've done it twice and so far, she is OK. I've left when she is in bed, asleep and come back with her in the same place. 

Friday

It is becoming the norm, not wanting to get up, and then struggling through our morning routine. At this point, I'm giving her about one and half tubes of CBD by the end of breakfast. One when I get her on the potty, she is most cooperative there, then half on her toast, and another half on her cereal. If nothing else, she isn't mean to me while on the oil. 

Because I got her up, and we had an early breakfast, a small lunch. By dinner time, she was hungry, like a tiger in a cage. Hovering around the kitchen, asking unanswerable questions, and telling her I'm getting dinner as fast as I can make it. It was her body language that told me what she wanted. 

No sooner did I get the food on the table, she was at it with gusto. The new item was sweet potato, with a little butter and brown sugar, and it too disappeared. 

The next new thing was she went up stairs to bed without me. I thought she would come back down, but she didn't, so I left her there. I slept down stairs. I'm finding that I sleep better without her in bed with me. Maybe, I'm not on edge, waiting for her to get up and go. 

Today, my caregiver comes to give me some relief. I will enjoy my day at the course. Because of Sweetie's new not wanting to leave the house, I haven't been able to get to the course. This is going to be a treat. 

It seems that we're going through some tunnels as we head to the top of the mountain road. there are more dark spots then sunny spots on this part of the Road to Dementia Town, but we still try to Keep Our Shiny Side Up. C'ya, Luv ya, and God Bless.