At my age.

A new beginning.

 Its true, a new beginning. Am I happy to start all over again? In one sense of the word, yes, and in another no. 

I had thought that at my age, I would not have to do this again, learn another person, and to see if our edges fit. 

I know that I don't want to live the rest of my life alone, and then again, I don't want to be alone for the rest of my life either. 

I've asked my youngest to be my travel partner. With her with me, I will be less willing to look at someone to be with me. She will act like a barrier for me. 

I know I can flirt with the best of them, and that alone can get me in trouble. And I don't want to "find" someone too soon after Sweetie has left for her rewards.

So, what to do? Live like life has surprises waiting for me. 

Thursday

Still recuperating, but had somethings on the schedule for today. One is the Bible study at church and the other is playing a round of golf. 

The first was the easiest of the two. It meant people with friendly attitudes, and a common interest. 

The next would be golf. This I would have to force myself to do. For right now, I just want to be alone, and in my loneliness, I can still talk to Sweetie. 

As it turned out, golf wasn't so bad. Ran into a fellow golfer, who knew Sweetie and me as a couple. He, himself is a caregiver to a family member. He too, had just lost a friend to cancer, and we can relate our feelings. 

Had a so-so round. 3 pars were the light of the round. 

Home again, played some golf on my X-Box, and watched the second "Lord of the Rings." Grandson called, and was bored, and wanted to talk. We spent about an hour on the phone, talking about nothing, just killing time. 

The evening ended with a meeting and some more TV. As it always was. 

The new Road to Life isn't getting a racing start. Just a slow role down the driveway. Which is good for now. Just taking it easy, me and Driver, doing a lot of stopping and going, looking and seeing, as we go. Keeping My Shiny Side Up. C'ya, Luv Ya, and God Bless. Arthur.