Do what is right

Christmas in Calif.

There was a time when we would make those plans. The one for travel, to see the kids and granddaughters, to spend time at the edge of the continent, and enjoy the season. 

Those days are gone, not so much that Sweetie couldn't handle the travel time, it is my fear that she would wonder off into the dark forest of Dementia, and I wouldn't be able to get her back. The idea of being away from home some times frightens me. 

I'm starting to spread bottles of CBD around the house. I've put a bottle in the bathroom upstairs. That way, I can get her to take some when I get her into the bathroom to change her pullups. Or even, when I wake her up. Dementia seems to be a 180degree attitude and it doesn't matter what I'm trying to get her to do. If I say, we have to turn right, she wants to turn left, when it comes to her balance medicine, she refuses all the time. That is when I know she needs it so we can have some smooth time. Then again, I know I've caught her at the right time when there isn't any struggle to get her to take it. 

About her shoulder. I put some heat on it, and am now giving her two low dose chewable aspirin to help with the pain. It seems to be working. She seemed more comfortable using her arm at dinner. Hooray.  

Today is going to be her shower/hair washing morning. I use her scratching and dirty finger nails as clues to when it is needed. I know it is going to be a battle, it has to be done. The benefit is going to a couple of almost carefree days. 

Did the last of our Christmas shopping. The cost of shipping this gift was equal to what I paid for it. Right now, it is nice, being at this stage of our life. We have a great debt to income ratio, and even when the cost of something seems high, it doesn't bother me that much. Just take it all in stride. The rewards of the gift will always be more than the cost. 

Got to play a little golf yesterday, on a whim. The UPS store isn't that far from the course, so we slipped over, and was able to get out. Didn't play the full round, Sweetie was getting cold, and I didn't want to push it. What I'd pay for her getting cold wasn't worth anymore time on the course. Read the systems, weigh the cost of her happiness, and do what is right. 

Do what it right, regardless of my feelings. That is what my Driver tells me. Delay your happiness for that which you know is the right thing to do. He's right. When I do that, the happiness that I was expecting has been greater then what I was expecting. There can be joy and happiness as we travel the Road to Dementia Town. All I have to remember is to Keep my Shiny Side Up. C'ya, Luv ya, and God Bless.