Do no harm rule.

Reflection of what was.

Life doesn't have a reverse gear. While I can reflect back at what life with Sweetie was, I still have to live in the now. Living with my Sweetie, everyday, come what may, I'm living with her. 

She had always been the ballast to my hot air balloon, the rudder to my wayward sailing ship. She brought the right prospective when I would head off down the road that would have lead to disaster. So, how am I to know if what I'm doing is the right thing to do? 

She still is that guiding force in my life. Simply by being who she is, the love we share, and the life we are living. I know if I'm doing the right thing, by the way I feel as I care for her. In reality, life is so much simpler now. Up, take care of Sweetie for the day, get something that I want done (as long as it doesn't harm Sweetie.), and at the end the day, in bed asleep. She is still my ballast, because of my "Do no harm" rule. 

My do not harm rule sets my goal each and everyday. It is to spend the day, enjoying the moments of her recognizing me, and telling me love notes when she is in that zone of awareness. To see her smile, to keep her clean and dry, fed, and loved that day. To got to bed and wake up to do it all over again. 

Wednesday

It was a rough beginning. She didn't want to get out of bed. It took me a couple of tries before I wouldn't take no for an answer. Got her up, and into the bathroom, into the shower, and washed her up. Just a thought, now that she is getting into the shower when I get her up, could that be the reason she doesn't want to get up in the first place? 

I've started to regulate her CBD into 3 hour between doses. I do load her up first thing in the morning. One dose in the bathroom, then at breakfast, she gets a dose on her toast and in her cereal. Two dose at lunch, usually on her sandwich, and one in her applesauce. The next is at 3 in the afternoon, which carry us to dinner. 

Lately, she tuckers out around 3 and so, I make sure she has a dose before she takes a nap. For the past couple of days, she isn't as cooperative as in the past. I think it is just a slip sliding away, little by little she is going away. The extra sleep is also a sign of her going away. 

That's OK. For I know that Driver is still at the wheel, skillfully driving us to our destination. We'll get there when the time is right, and not a moment too soon or late. So, sit back, relax for we are on the Road to Dementia Town, more important is that we are Keeping our Shiny Side Up, as we go. C'ya, Luv ya, and God Bless.