A selfish, self centered man.

The love triangle

Sorry, but you'll see the car for awhile. 

Right now, my whole world is bright because of a car. At the same time, a car cannot return the joy it gives me. For me, it is a symbol of an accomplishment that I felt was way out of my ability to get. 

At this moment in time, don't tell me that there is no God, for I see His hand in my life daily. I've read that He will do great and wonderful thing in my life, and who can deny that what has happen isn't proof of that. 

There are other things besides the car. There is the softening of my heart towards Sweetie, and the care that I give her. To me, a selfish, self centered man, to be able to do what needs to be done, and talk of love to her while I do it, that is a miracle all by itself. 

Tuesday

I've been out to the garage already, to look, to touch, and to pinch myself to make sure it wasn't a dream. Tweety is there, warm and snug in our garage. 

I remember when we bought Sweetie's Mazda 6. Her blue, hot, sport sedan. Mag wheels, spoiler, and V6 under the hood. She was a beauty. At that time, it was, again, something that I though we'd never have. 

When we went to buy her car, the salesman kept turning and talking to me. I told him that it was her car and to talk to her. He'd turn and paid his attention to her. Soon, he'd turn to me, again, and the scenario would repeat itself. So, I backed away and left them to work the deal. It was hers and I wanted it to be her choice, not mine.

Those are the memories that swirl around in my head when today's events mirror yesterdays past. 

Tweety is bigger then the first Tweety, and we are working on finding the best way for her to get in and out of the car. So far, it seems easier for her all the way around. She may or may not understand what is happening, I just know that she knows it is different. 

For the next couple of weeks, I'm going to be using the new car, just to get used to it. It will be when the newness of it wears off some, that we will return to the one that Sweetie is most comfortable with. 

We had a good day, and was able to relax with a little. I missed a dose of meds for her, and her personality changed, and we had some discussions on what to do. It was later in the evening, when her CBD worked its way in that she cuddled up to me. 

All in all, the road was smooth, the conversation was lively as we passed one more mileage marker, as we travel the Road to Dementia Town. For Driver, it is best when we Keep Our Shiny Side Up. C'ya, Luv Ya, and God Bless.